It's Life. Deal with it.: Debilitating Grief

It's Life. Deal with it.: Debilitating Grief

Debilitating Grief

There is such a thing as debilitating grief.. when you can't feel anything else except pain and you crave for numbness. We all have our own thresholds for pain and suffering, for grief and sorrow.. we all have our own level of comfort we retreat to when all else fails and nothing comforts.

The most valuable thing you can lose isn't material wealth or some trinket with sentimental value. Its your ability to BELIEVE.

To believe that there will be better tomorrows, better days.

To believe that there is someone out there destined to be with you and love you for who you are.

To believe that the pain will go away, that you will wake up one day and be able to smile sincerely to yourself.

When you lose someone you care about - whether they go away and leave you, or if they've found someone else to be with, years of being in a relationship gone dead can be as debilitating as losing someone to death. Sometimes, there is a certain comfort in death.. its finality.. than to have someone leave you for someone else..

People often think that being replaced is the fault of the person who got replaced.. that they didn't do enough, or they didn't try hard enough.. Easy to judge when you're not in the shoes of a person who suffered the worst heartbreak ever.

To not feel loved as an equal, as a partner...

To not have a reason to wake up to...

To not have anything or anyone...

Is there any joy to loneliness? After the nest is vacated, is there such a thing as happiness in being alone?

Of course there will be people in your life. Friends, acquaintances, co-workers... but is there anyone to come home to?

Some people adjust, some people lie. Some people immerse themselves with things to keep loneliness at bay.

Some people look for others as lonely as they are, some people just stay home and wallow in their loneliness..

Easy to say "you'll find someone" or "have a relationship with God"...

Even God can't be with you.. that's the reason why He made two...

How can you believe in anything positive when belief in itself has been taken away from you? How can you reach a stage of equilibrium when your entire world has been taken away from you?

You go through the motions of life, of living... unbelieving in anything else except the pain that numbs you... and a glimmer of hope that one day the numbness ends..